This one came from a quote that was so on the nose I felt I had to remove some of it for the track title. The full quote being “I yearn for a child. Mother nature must have a different plan for me.” It’s such a delicate and powerful statement, it hit me hard when I read it, but I didn’t know how, or if I even should try to represent it musically. I was also interested in the weight of bias it carries, given the sex of the author is actually ambiguous. Like many of the quotes with such emotive power, I let it sit for months as I tested musical ideas and tried to find connections. In this instance it needed to be a purely felt connection, I didn’t want to move away from the feeling of the quote with any technical processes like some of the other projects.
Some time later, I arranged to meet with Tom VR for a studio session. I chatted to Tom about the album project and some of the quotes, and the idea of finding musical representations. Then something strange happened which I’ve never seen before. We switched on a collection of synths, and I set my favourite patches and signal paths and prepared everything for a jamming session. Tom went to the Trigon6 and touched the keys, and the absolute first keys he touched; are the beginning of this piece of music. We played for hours and tried many things, but that first fortuitous lightning strike captured something with a deep resonance and felt to fit. I tried to keep the rest of the piece as subtle and honest as I could, which again, felt the only way to approach such a delicate human experience we were trying to represent.